c russh h

u used to be the one that i adore, my hero,
the 1 that i respect and the 1 that i love the most..
but why it always be rain on my sunny day,
every time the words came out from your mouth u just give me 1 reason to hate you.
and it crush me to million pieces that never be back together again.
those anger , those madness, those nonsense,
i hate it the most..
but why always me??
aren't there not enough and perfect for you yet?
what do i mean to you?
u hurt me.. painfully
u'll never see me again who i used to be..
i promise

MY NEW JOB :P

i just received call from jessica cutting edge..
and i got that job!!!
hee.. damn, i am so happy!!!!!

NEW JOB

money vs life

i want to quit from bakery where i work now.,.,.,
but then i need money to survive... $$$
my bosz is 1 of a kind which i really can't explain..
she can be sweet and kind but she can change into dark hateble evil you ever met in your life..
i'm so confused!!!
should i quit or should i continue??

tiring day....but FUN!

my colej did a model search for Breeze Magazine today. it started yesterday.
almost 200 contestant participating in this events. the winner gonna win almost RM50,000 worth and a contract Front Cover for Breeze Magazine.
Anyway,
the most amazing part is, I became a PRESS..
this is my 1st time interviewing people,get closed and face my confidence in facing new faces.
hehe....kindda TIRED, but i enjoy it! this tuesday i have to send my press release.
hope my lecturer can accept my writing.

i diot me ( i guess)

Let me started it with “Thank You So Much”.
You are not really my true love or the one that I love damn much. But I can say that you’re the 1 that I care the most. I never really care who you are ;I don’t even know who you are. It doesn’t really matter for me. And I’m not saying that your my perfect guy instead I can read every step that u going to do, every words that are going to split from your mouth, all the action that going to react and how’s the ending will be. I even can read every lies that went through your words and every scene that you did behind me, still it doesn’t really matter for me. As long as I know that you are safe, in good wealth and o.k., is enough for me. I never ask anything from you, never hit you, pitch you or even louder my voice in front of you just to take care of your feeling. But I guess being a good person is too much and doesn’t suit you. I know these kinds of thing are going to happen because I can read how the ending would be like, but I never thought it would be this much pain as I imagine before. Now I realize that be unappreciated by other person is so much pain and hurt damn much. Nothing more that I can say, just please think on the other side, other’s feeling and for once, please appreciates everything that you have now before you regret.
I guess that I take care of other feeling more than my own. And I never realize that this is killing me. Why does this always happen to me? Is it bad to be good to other person?
I felt so regret did all those stuff towards you when in the end you actually never appreciate me as the way that I appreciate you. Why do I have to fall in love to a wrong person while I know he is not the rite person for me? Idiot Me!!

ma 1st day

diz is ma 1st tyme writing in ma blog... and there's alot that i need to learn..
hee.....